born.
abandoned. kidnapped.
hidden in the woods.
sexually abused. secrets and lies.
put to work. pushed aside.
gymnast. competitor. quitter.
emotionally neglected.
shamed. feared.
gifted gymnastics teacher.
disregarded - denied - blamed.
victim of my own life.
alcoholic. college student. waitress.
babysitter. gymnastics teacher.
abandon self. save self.
mix and repeat for 12 years.
new york. oklahoma. new jersey. texas.
new orleans. buffalo. cape cod. key west.
buffalo again. new york again.
no geographic cure.
alcoholic. babysitter.
gymnastics teacher.
mental break. delusion.
spiritual awakening.
therapy. 12 steps. sober. survivor.
meisner acting school. trapeze school.
gymnastics school owner. thriver.
happy new yorker.
september 11th. two blocks away.
jumpers. building collapse.
staten island ferry rescue. ptsd.
sold business. devastated. still sober.
moved to maui. met my person. married.
moved back. mother. wife. no money.
reopened gymnastics school. success.
city living. country weekends.
business thriving. major manifestor.
back to maui with business in new york.
loving, committed, dynamic marriage.
stay at home mom. healthy happy kid.
financially contributing to family.
found my people. in service to community.
beach. cooking. hiking. playing. still sober.
writing. praying. meditating.​
happy in hawaii.
economy crash. move back east. land in PA. daily commute. PA to NY. NY to PA.
communting. commuting. commuting.
depressed. smoking. gaining weight.
mom dies. no more gravity. flailing. smoking.
dig out. dig. dig. dig.
praying. meditating. writing.
staying sober.
accepting. allowing. letting go.
apply to grad school. accepted. two classes.
pregnant. twins. drop classes. sell business.
reapply. accepted again.
engage. awaken. invent.
many classes. many facets.
one plan. help others out of hell.
keep. moving. gently. forward.​
masters degree in clinical mental health. licenced professional counselor.
author.
private practice.​
settling in to my own heart.
stepping out with my whole soul.
showing up. shining.
​
Stephanie.